John Lennon preached it right

I want to understand the killing that goes on in this world, i will never see how killing and decapitating a British solider in cold blood is 'ok'. Then how the killer can turned around and say 'sorry' to women for having to witness it 'but it goes on in our own country'. British soldiers come in your country  to fight for your freedom, technically they could walk out any day and leave you all alone to fight yourselves. If you decide to come to our country you should come with respect. We have our own rules here and killing a solider is one of the worst crimes that could be committed, If you don't like it then you go back to your own country.

In your country you may believe the saying and eye for an eye and as much as i  dont and believe in forgiveness and don't condone that i again have to say if i were in your country i would accept your lifestyle i would have to,i would not go around killing people to try and 'make a point' that what i know and feel is correct. NO ONE has a right to take life except for God..he is the one that puts us onto this earth and he has it all mapped out for us. Its only fair and right we give him to right to choose when he wants to call us home.

If we are to live by your rules you would be dead now too, but you not.it's because we know better than to create an endless circle of death, pain and scandal...a circle that will end the entire human race if we let things carry on in the manner they are. There is a natural circle that carries us though life, dont turn it into some man made disaster.killing does not make anyone a better person, it makes as us bad as the person you are 'trying to get revenge on'

John Lennon was right when he asked us to imagine a world with no countries, religion, greed or hunger because that would be a pretty awesome place right?...what people seem to forget sometimes is that no matter how far away they are from another and no matter what creed, religion, sexuality we all live under the same sky and breathe in the same oxygen. 

Lets start bring hope to our world. lets join hands and work together instead of putting so much of our efforts into killing eachother. 

nothing to kill or die for  

you may say im a dreamer but i'm not the only one 

5 days of Germany :)

So a few months ago one of my friends in Germany messaged me about taking another Young Americans workshop in Germany. My answer at first was a flat out no...and i would like to repeat again for the record that is NOTHING to do with the YA but problems i am going through currently on my own... and the fact I'm 21 now and half of the YA are my age or younger haha! I generally had no intention of ever taking a workshop again. I did agree to go out there though when i realised that SO MANY of my friends were taking this workshop. I knew i would never really get an opportunity to see everyone like i could then.
A few weeks of constant begging and in the end i agreed i would take workshop one more time with all my friends whom i love and adore more than anything else in the entire world. So then last week it was off to Germany to see everyone for 5 special days.

The morning of my flight we had to leave home at like 2:30 in the morning and i'd not slept so was shattered... i drank so much red bull i nearly made myself sick, i certainly felt sick! oh easy jet how i love you! I seriously got on the plane dead to the world and got off the other end in a zombie state...but oh my gosh i was SO happy to be back in Germany and in the place i love...:)

For anyone who knows me..or reads my blog regular enough will know how much i love Germany. Everything about it, the place, the people the culture and oh my god the food!!!!! My friends i was staying with had also recently moved to a new house so i was like all hyped up to get to go there, even more so getting told i was gonna be aloud to sleep in the sun room under the stars every night. Oh my gosh the house, just oh my gosh when i got there... I was a massive old house converted into apartments...a typical old time German home with a huge green out front and a beautiful stream when i looked out the window...i sat on the roof for hours everyday watching that stream and writing. There was also a beautiful forest on the other side of the house going up into the mountains it was picture perfect...unreal...it took my breath away.

Workshop well that was amazing, more amazing than i thought it would be. The cast was amazing i don't think i was prepared to meet a group like that again. SO MANY beautiful people in one place, so many beautiful, talented and inspiring people. My first dinner break i was sitting with this amazing YA named Kelsey talking about our lives and the beauty in what can be given in this world...I don't know how we started talking it just happened but we were sitting on the floor when a beautiful little girl i later found out to be called Emeila came over and asked out of the blue about plaiting my hair. (She actually done a better job than i would worryingly. That girl oh my gosh she was amazing at at the end of workshop she told me i could come home stay with her anytime...which i promised i will. She was so sweet i am blessed to have got the chance to be a part of her life.

For any of the cast that read this i want you to know your perfect, amazing..and you shine like gold...I am so happy that my last workshop was with you. Thank you for all the memories and confidence you gave me and thank you for teaching us a new show that meant the world to me and I'm sure many others too. Also thank you to my home stays for being actually the best home stays in the universe, i have never laughed so much before in my entire life.

Saying goodbye and flying home from this beautiful country was so hard for me... i remember as the YA bus pulled away the day before i left...i turned around and looked to see all my friends standing and realised i had to say goodbye because i wouldn't have a chance to say goodbye the next day and broke down. So many friends all in one place,  so much of my heart breaking... it was awful...


Germany until we meet again!

Life.

The past month or so i think for me has been the hardest ever..ive had to deal with a lot of shit going on though out my life  and I'm sorry that yet again my blog has been neglected. Sometimes my blog helps me though a lot when i am down and hurting...and sometimes things happen that are literally to bad to write on here and that is when i need time to be alone with my own head and heart and sort things out myself.
However i am now going to catch my blogup best i can with all the good things that have been going on or anything that recently has been inspiring me... i have a book I've been writing in and some of that stuff is for sure ok to come on here.
thank you for constantly reading my blog i am so grateful to all my readers
love you all