A letter home

A little something i wrote though the eyes of a soldier who lost their life in battle....

I was watching over you last night.
I saw that you were crying... that nothing seemed all right.
In your head i felt the hopelessness that was wighing down your soul
All the what if's and maybes, that we'll never get a chance to know.
I desperately wanted to hold you pull you tight in to my arms
Kiss you, tell you that i love you...even though we have to be apart.
Tell my dad that i don't regret it Following in his shoes.
this was my destiny i had nothing less to loose...
I see you you take a sharp breath in and hold it for a while
SILENCE then you break down again all you do is cry
I wish you were able to smile, and be happy for me, i died a hero fighting for my country the best thing that any one could be!
I've thrown away my gun, i'm leaving behind the war, the trouble and the crying, I'm finally free.
You will love it here and when it's your time i'll see you again
But for now i want you to live...remember death is not the end.
Smile, be happy and achieve you goals, never give up, you cannot know what the future holds.
As i leave i slightly brush you on the cheek, your lips begin to smile, and quietly you weep.
Thank you i can feel you, your love is all around.

:Alone

A poem to maybe help people understand that sometimes depression is not a cry for attention but a genuine and serious illness which should be thought about and not just thrown to the side. I hope by reading this poem people realize that their friend might have a problem and that they get help before it becomes to late.




:Alone

I feel so scared
locked in a box and all alone
no where to turn to
nowhere to go.

I want someone to save me
But no one understands
I want someone to run to
Someone to hold my hand

I wish i didn't feel
so bad like this all the time
the never ending crying
the constant self denying

Falling apart slowly
In time i will be gone
I don't think anyone will notice
It's much to far along

Everybody hates me
I know they want me dead.
If i was gone
They would be better off they said

They say thats in my head
And that feeling is not true
They say love and they care
But where were they speak to?

I wish i was a different person
I hate feeling this way
living in this nightmare
every single day

One day soon i will be gone
Then maybe they will understand
When i said i needed help, it was true
For this day a long time, I've had planned.

Little Girl

Little girl

I see who you are

You put on a smile

But your falling apart

I wish i could hold you

And help you to stand

But you just run away

As fast as you can

Into the abyss

Of another far off world..

Your dying slowly

Little Girl

I hope one day you'll wake up

And see the true beauty

of your heart, of your spirit and soul.

That you step out of your own world...

Where your alone ,afraid and so cold.

Little girl

I wish you could see

Little Girl

The one who is me.

Sometimes

Sometimes, I just want to run away..
As far as i can go, and never come back...
Sometimes i get the feeling that the entire universe is upon my shoulders.
And as i try to walk i fall..
But then i find the strength from within
The voice that tells me to keep trying
Telling me nothing will ever be perfect
But that if i just learn to stand
I will be ok
My only goal is just to be....