Make it a better place

'I've heard it said, that people come into our lives for a reason, bringing something we must learn and we are led to those, who help us most to grow if we let them, and we help them in return'
I was just listening to the wicked soundtrack, which i do actually one hell of alot...and i got thinking about a friend of mine who i met totally randomly a few years ago.
So this girl, makes the lyrics to this song so significant...Do you know when you meet someone and the instant they look at you, and speak for the first time you KNOW they are going to understand you and you will be friends? Well this is what happened with this girl. The first time i met her i was crying quite abit...well alot. I was thinking about alot of things and my head was away somewhere in the clouds....she came over to me and asked me for a hug, and let me just explain this...i never let people hug me a few years ago...literally wouldnt let anyone touch me, unless i knew them really well, and from that moment i just KNEW i could trust her with my life and my heart. I don't think she even knew i didnt like hugs...i guess she just saw it in my body language that instant pull back, arms crossed, head down thing i done instantly to try and get away from the situation.
I don't know why i decided to write this blog, but i just felt it had to be done, I want the world to know there is such things as angels...because this girl i'm talking about is one of them.
I love how we sat for hours upon hours just talking about our lives and everything that had happened and the crazy thing was, she had gone though everything i went though, and am going though when she was my age if not more than me...out of all the thousands of random people i could have started talking to, it was her!
Ahhh i cannot even think of the words to write what i want to say, it's one of those annoying situations where you know exactly inside your heart but when out, it just gets lost in a total catastrophe of words and sentences all thrown in together. It's hard to explain because normally in a situation like this i could say oh shes one of my best friends, but shes really not...I love her to death and back and would literally take a bullet for her just to see her smile...so it's not that i don't care either because i REALLY do..i think like for good says, she was brought into my life for a reason, and i really think thats the only way i can describe it. Some people a naturally meant to find each other because they are soul mates and destined to either be lovers or best friend.or sometimes both...then you get the other people we meet, than come in and out of your life...and change you in the most tiny but very significant ways, they do not normally stay long, and theres only SO much they can teach you. Well with this girl is constantly changing me still even years later, thats why i feel so blessed to have her, she really has helped me to grow, and i know that right now im in a fucking crazy mood and all over the place but within that i have reached an inner calm which i had never managed to reach before i knew her...It's an amazing feeling having someone you can talk to who you know is not going to blab it to your circle of friends...because they dont know any of them, and of whom actually understand the situation you are going though.
This weekend i got to spend some time with her after what seemed to me to be years...and it's the caring and how happy my heart felt at that moment, I really do think that talking face to face is much better than over a chat, because more feelings and love can go into it...you can see more what is real, and what is not. I felt so amazed that she even wanted to see me, i am actually an epic fail and normally make everything suck..or at least i think so and thats all that matters to me!!!! It just lifted my spirits up so much and made me feel a million times better about myself..i got home that day and just walked around singing the entire day (namely all RENT) but i was singing all day...something i have not done in a really long while!
So yeah i believe in angels and i believe that people come into our lives for a reason, i want for everyone who reads this to say hello to everyone and get to know everyone at every opportunity you get..because you never know who can change you life...if you had told me a few years back i would meet someone who changed me and would even give me a reason to live when i was suicidal, i would have laughed in your face, but now...i believe in the things unseen...the little things that draw people together and help to make them and (hopefully in time) the world a better place.
Thank you for reading.

Diana Patient Photography

OK so i just thought that i would write a blog about this awesome photographer which i have only recently got to know more...I have seen her name on my friends walls and everything but I've never actually looked at her her work, until this perfect girl i know called Emma had a photoshoot with her a month or so ago. That was when i actually took time to look at her work and i was gobsmacked with what was before my eyes.. Her work is actually amazing literally, i have not seen anything like it, maybe my best friends work but that is literally it.

So i have some more to say but first i just want to talk about Emma because i think that this is really important to do...Emma to me, the picture perfect person, I've never met anyone with such a beautiful heart and soul. She like one of these people who have the perfect face, perfect body perfect image and everything and i am SO jealous sometimes at her for that (i know thats bad i know i know)..but i also know that she is not that confident with her image and her body sometimes and I've never seen a collection of photographs where she has looked SO confident...she looked vibrant, and powerful, clearly very seductive aswell after seeing the reaction on one of my friends faces hahahahahahahahah! To me i hope that she sees in them pictures exactly what i see in her everyday the most beautiful sis alive.. She looked safe and happy and like she belonged there, in that moment, in front of that camera, i saw a few photos earlier, but only really saw the lot last night..i actually cried because i was SO proud at her for doing this and being able to shoot something so amazing with someone... regardless if she knew them or not. There we some pictures where she was rolling around on the floor with some string (it was an alley cat theme people people you start coming to conclusions hahaha) for her to just let go and do that, well even with my best friend i would be to scared...to see Emma do that...it was amazing...


Clearly thought this must also be due to some STUNNING photography on Diana's part, i love her images, i love how she captures the little things, for me, the passion she managed to capture in Emma's eyes when she was dancing...the 'real' smiles, there seemed to be none of this, pose like this and that going on, it was safe, comfortable and beautiful. I am amazingly passionate about dancing, and people who know me will know im having a slight breakdown right now because im not gonna be dancing everyday like i used to..so to see something good in dance, it really does move me greatly. There was a photo shoot she done on southbank on pointe and it was literally stunning...so amazing...another one...ballet dancers in the rain i loved that too...well actually i loved the whole lot! Once i get my life on track, and get some money and time, i really want to get my own horse that i have dreamed about since i started riding years ago...and then i would pay her for a horse and rider photo shoot, i just know she would capture the bond...:)


I just wanted to recommend her to anyone, be it for a portfolio or wedding or whatever, she is really awesome, and her prices are amazing too, take that coming from someone who was looking around to get a dance and acting portfolio done, it was going into the one thousand mark. She also includes i believe make up into the price i cannot remember exactly i have a brain of a goldfish...but always email her :) here are some links... BLOODY DO IT!!!!





http://www.facebook.com/pages/Diana-Patient-Photography/160695867278874





https://dianapatientphotography.wordpress.com/about/





http://www.flickr.com/photos/lovefriendshipfreedom/

Photo Courtesy of Diana Patient Photography

Heather Penhale

Ok so this blog is actually totally random and off the wall. But today a wonderful and amazing friend of mine Steven wrote on my wall for my birthday, and when we were talking we mentioned this girl called Heather.

It actually made me think way back to 2009 when she was on the Young American tour that i done.

I remember going up to her and seeing writing on her arm, thinking it was this awesome tattoo. but then when the next day she had something different, but also so amazing i was like...

????????

I asked her and she said that everyday she writes something on her arm, something beautiful. It actually really inspired me, and like a dumbass that i am, i didn't even get to know this wonderful person...i wish i had..... I don't regret..never regret, just wish i had spent time getting to know her..

But ok so this blog was REALLLLLYYYY random i just wanted to tell everyone though :)

PS: I'm only dumb enough that i just posted this blog and realised i done it without a picture...and had to do it again argh !