A crazy weekend.

This weekend has been totally crazy, so crazy in fact, that I have not had the time to sit down and to write about it. After the news i received Friday i was in too much of a crazy and depressed mood to want to actually do anything to start with. On Saturday, i got woken up by my mum and all i could think about was, i want to go back to bed, i hate this, i don't want to go out, nor do anything. But then i was reminded that i was going out with one of my best friends Alice and i got ready and left the house anyway, just because i always and forever have a good time when i with her, she understands me completely. We arranged to meet at 11, so I got there and went off first for a walk, i found some beautiful poppies, sitting in a field alone surrounded by daisies, i got some really wonderful pictures. :).. Then i realised i was late and pelted it back to our meeting place to find no Alice, after an hour or so i started to panic, so i decided to try and drive to her house considering i knew roughly where it was, but i didn't actually know where i was going for real. I eventually thought i found it, and to my luck there was a guy outside in the garage, i got my nan to go and speak to him and he said that indeed Alice did live here and that she was still in bed, at this point i literally cried with relief because i was panicking that something may have happened (Alice is about as accident prone as i so i would have had some reason to!) Then i burst into laughter, so after her step dad told me i could wait in the house for her, and after i calmed myself, i went in, only to have Alice five minutes later fly down the stairs full of sorries and omg i cant believe i done that i never do that...i just wanted to laugh...I love my best friends, i dont think they realise just how much they make me smile just by being themselves.
So when Alice was ready we left and caught the train to southend, we were both tired so she treated us both to an amazing cold costa coffee :) We certainly got hyper by the time we had finished them :)
Sitting on the train we managed to have one of the most beautiful and most amazing chats, possibly one of the best i have had with someone in quite a while. This girl has an amazing heart, and i loved how we spent the whole journey talking about really personal things, only that eachother could understand, and for once when people got on the train, i did not feel ashamed, and i didnt hush my voice to barely audible. She always helps me to understand that an illness is an illness...and getting better takes time and its not your fault, therefore you cannot be ashamed of it. I wish i could be like that with everyone i am with, not just when i am with Alice.
Once at southend we headed off to the beach to do a photo shoot, although, after seeing how far the tide was in decided against it and that we would come back at a later time, just across the road, there was this beautiful little rock pool garden, and we went over to take some pictures over there. After maybe ten photos though i asked if we could stop, more than ever i was having an ugly day, and i did not feel myself being in front of this camera like i was. So we walked up to the highstreet and used the boots makeup selection to redo everything! Ok so it didnt exactly do wonders, i still felt amazingly awful but i felt abit better, my face was covered. We then popped into a shop and bought hundreds of sweets and candies, after blowing the balloons up and emptying the sweets into a huge decorative bag we went down to the beach and handed out free gifts of sweets and balloons to the children. It was simply amazing to see how all their little faces lit up over something so small, and that in this day is insignificant to many teenager and older people. One little girl came over with her slightly older sisters and brother. They could not have been older than nine or ten, and after giving them all a balloon and asking their parents if they could have a sweet we watch them walk around constantly holding that balloon, the youngest..(maybe about two or three) hugged her balloon like a teddy bear and didn't let go. Her parents were getting them all to stand for a photo holding their balloons. i could not believe the happiness that we brought to the young children like that. Another family that i really remember was a family of a mother, grandmother and grandfather, and their two young girls, toddler boy and six week old baby. The two young girls came over to us and were sitting talking, it was so sweet, so sweet, when all we had given them was a balloon and sweet each. After about half hour or so, their grandmother came back with an ice cream for them and their mother kindly asked us if we would like anything to drink, although we declined, i still cannot get over how wonderful and how sweet her offer was! The two little girls sat with us and kept asking 'would you like a little bit of my ice cream?' i couldn't get over how much they had taken to us, just thanks to a little bit of latex on the end of a string and a sweet. When we decided to walk along the sea front and hand out balloons and sweets to more children. The girls said, 'oh no, we will miss you' and that set it in concrete, exactly how much random acts of kindness can make a persons day! As well as doing a 'make humans happy' mission we also set about make the dogs happy mission, and bought a bag of dog treats, every dog we saw, we would ask their owners if they could have a treat. To see how happy the dogs were made me just so happy. After all the craziness that was our life, we decided to go grab a drink, and for me...A TOFFEE APPLE!!! my secret addiction, i bloody love them! Sitting on the pier i decided that i really couldn't be bothered to have an photos taken of me, i was tired and felt depressed. So we decided to head home then go watch a movie instead.
On the train home, after picking up yet another coffee, we decided that we could blow up the rest of the balloons on the train and put a left over sweet in each, by the time we got home the whole carriage was full of them! I'll never forget the guys sitting next to us, who were like... 'Um guys...have you escaped from somewhere?' and when i told him i was 19 and Alice 18, he looked even more freaked out by the whole thing! This is possibly one of the best memories of my life, this whole day, I love how with Alice i can be completely mental, and how every one of my other friends would have walked if we done that, oh and we also left a balloon in the pub bathrooms where we went before we got the bus :)
Despite being so tired i literally could not even walk, i had trouble sleeping that night and kept waking up, and 2am i went down to get a drink and my little hamster peace was running crazy round her cage like normal, then sitting looking at me when i went to the fridge hoping i would give her something to eat. I went back to bed but couldn't sleep so at 5am i came down and went to make a coffee, as i walked out i saw my hamster out of the corner of my eye gnawing on her cage like she normally does. When i got closer i realised she in fact was dead, i freaked out, Boo and peace was too much for me to handle, and burst into my moms room shouting peace is dead peace is dead, i didn't really know what to do. I named her Peace for a reason, to me she represented peace, and it broke me to see her dead, it was like the last chance of world peace ever being achieved had left.
I've had such a crazy weekend...i really don't know what to make of it, so many good, yet at the same time so many bad things have happened. Wow.