Gweedo (2006)

In 2006 i met a wonderful cast of beautiful and strong people called the Young Americans, When they came to my school we was told that a member of the cast had passed away, everyone thought that this meant the workshop would not be happening and that they would be flying home early which would have been totally understandable, so i called my mum and told her she might need to come and get me school finishing time because the workshop might not be on..However about an hour later the Young Americans arrived and said that the workshop was going to happen..

Tomorrow is the anniversary of when Gweedo passed away so i wanted to write this now, as i know tomorrow i might not get the time and this is something i want to do so bad, I don't know what i am expecting to gain from this, But if i can make just one person see what good there is in the world, then i am content with that.

The cast in 2006 were amazingly close and when I first spoke to them i remember thinking, 'how are they doing this? How are the carrying on with a smile on their face?' I realise now that it was because they all possessed a golden heart, which meant that no matter how much they were hurting or sad, they wanted to make US smile.

The whole cast were so strong, and when somebody got upset they supported eachother as a whole, i literally remember every single moment and every single cast member from this tour...And when normally i can't remember what i done five seconds ago...it speaks volumes....
I remember silly little things that made me smile...
When Cody got a bottle of water poured over him in impro class and spent the rest of the day wearing (I think) Ashley's pink sweater...
When the first time i ever spoke to Jaimie it was about what will call different items of clothing in England
How the first YA i ever met was Ashley and she introduced me to Jessica because she likes horses..
When Alaina explained in front of us about what had happened and she cried and made me cry
When i said thank you to Shannon at the end and she hugged me, and i felt like i had done something good..
And many other little things, I will never forget how they kept eachother going at the same time as teaching us the workshop..I am so blessed to have met them...

For any member of that cast reading this, i want to say a massive thank you from the bottom of my heart, because you just simply cannot know how much you have changed me and impacted my heart and life.
Alaina and Shannon,my beautiful beautiful girls, i will NEVER forget your strength, even more so than anyone, and i will always be prepared to explain the reasons to you whenever you need to know.
But to all of you, what you did that year gave me courage and a hope i never knew even existed in my heart, I want to tell you all that i love you to the ends of this earth, and i know i will never talk to any of you ever again, but just know that even what I am doing with my life now, is still majorly impacted upon what you all taught me, I'll never forget how i learnt it was ok to cry, and that when you cry together, you will become one...I learnt to love, which i never wanted to before, i never wanted to open my heart, you taught me that life is too short and you have to carry on and love those that are here and not take them for granted...You taught me to smile, no matter what was happening as one smile could brighten another persons soul. You taught me more than anyone has ever taught me before.

Thank you for sharing you lives and beautiful spirits with me, i only wish you constant happiness and peace and that this note will help you find a peice of mind and give you the strength you need if you find tomorrow hard... I hope with every part of my heart you are all well and living your lives just how you want to be... Gweedo really would be so amazingly proud of all of you even now. I love how you still mention his story in every town (Ross) and keep his memory alive the whole time (Everyone), I love how i danced with Gweedo's old stick in shadowlands in 2009 and when Emma told me i danced with more strength than what i knew existed, simply because even though i never met him i felt his strength with me.....

Carpe Diem